Waiting

So here it is the “in between” the “busy” the “routine” that I have found comfort in this deployment. There are still some hard days that I cannot keep up with all that needs to be done but the routine of him being gone has taken over. We have found our nitch. The kids wake up and play and laugh and we pour over pictures of us as a family and they sleep (occasionally) and then it is my time to miss him. It has become a pretty normal part of my day but here dear reader I have found myself.

I have found through this deployment that I am pretty darn strong. Say what? Yep me who now carries two kids down the stairs at a time and back up no less than 17 times a day. I who sat in our parked car after receiving some unexpected bad news and still managed to catch a glimpse at my children in the rear view mirror and shake it off. The same person that dreaded sleeping alone at night and the empty silence can now drift off with prayers.

The point that comes is dark days are lighter here. Happiness is still found in Him. This could be a pretty wearisome lonely time instead days are spent squishing bath bubbles and studying birds with the littles. All because we melt into Christ now when strength is required. In this I have found strength alone. Therefore it is not loneliness I live in but solitude. Each day that passes as a family apart from one another we grow stronger in ourselves. We endure our solitude of finding ourselves further in Christ. Praising God for this time of discovery and bringing us closer to Him.

Psalms 62:5 My soul, wait thou in silence for God only; For my expectation is from him.

Was there a time in your life recently that you distinctly remember God bringing you closer to him through your solitude? A verse that you came to love at this time?

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Goals for the Week of February 13th

First my goals for last week and how I did. How did you come on your list?

Family/Motherhood goals

1. Take kids to weekly music class
2. Story time play group ( I did not make this one as we had a rough night before and I decided they wouldn’t be up for it.)
3. Take Valentine’s pictures of kids
4. Read Bible aloud daily. (We made great progress reading it and praying daily but didn’t read everyday. Continuing to discipline our routine to revolve around God.

Marriage goals

1. Finish baby onsie blanket for hubby.
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2. Read The Power of the Praying Wife

Household goal

1. Establish a craft area
2. Continue working on quilt
3. Clean out closets

Self improvement goals

1. Begin exercise program (I am so thrilled by my dedication to this. I walked several miles this past week and did several different strength training sessions and one yoga session. I hope to get even more exercise in this week.)
2. Read How to Potty Train a Toddler the Loving Way ( I only made it half way through this goal)

Personal goals

1. Help another family
2. Reach out to another spouse ( I made dinner for another spouse and it was yummy.)
3. Reclaim our schedule after sickness brought chaos! Thank goodness some order!

So I didn’t accomplish everything last week but I heard if you reach all your goals they are not high enough. Here is striving for more next week!

Week of February 11th

Family/Motherhood goals

1. Take Valentine’s pictures of kids

2. Attend weekly music class.

3. Take them to the park 2x.

Marriage goals

1. Finish reading The Power of the Praying Wife.

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2. Mail quilt to hubby. I love how this turned out and was very simple. I am not the best sewer but I worked on it from an idea in my head and it turned out great.

Household goals

1. Work on baby’s name sign and bow holder

2. Drop off donations.

3. Work on quilt.

Self Improvement goals

1. Attend FRG training.

2. Finish reading How to Potty Train a Toddler the Loving Way.

3. Attend FRG meeting.

Personal goals

1. Continue exercising 5x a week.

2. Continue no TV before 5 pm. ( This has been one of my greatest achievements for living with purpose goals. Not having the glare on during day as background noise has increased focus and organization so much. I will be writing more on this soon.)

Love to hear others goals for the week!

Ten Things This Deployment Has Taught Me

Shortly into this deployment the lessons started pouring in. To think of how many military families have gone through such a strengthening time.

1. Things break. Like the fridge, full of food, at 7 o’clock at night for no apparent reason. Things stay broken, like that pesky hall light that isn’t really necessary to see anything but still a constant reminder of your fear of heights. Yes a stepping stool is a height. Stop laughing.

2. Kids get sick, often. What wouldn’t be a huge inconvenience is now. One kid is sick one isn’t. How to finagle a trip to the ER without both coming home with the plaque. Okay dramatic I know but these are thoughts that enter a woman’s mind as she waits for 3 hours in a crusty, is that the right word, yes crusty ER room.

3. Some things he is just better at doing. Like making tea or taking out the trash. Probably because I do not have to do it! But still, there is something about a man who takes out that trash that makes life a little sweeter.

4. Missing someone doesn’t get easier. Sure you get a routine down and the kids become better at coping but that dull heart ache that can sometimes turn nights into mornings without rest is always there.

5. Being a military spouse isn’t the hardest job. I have heard that mantra from so many people looking to give me praise and I have to say “nuh uh”. While I appreciate the sentiment, and yes sometimes aaggghh, but it isn’t accurate. He is doing what he loves but he had to leave another hundred things he loves to do it. Such as the kids, pizza and not to toot my own horn too much but ME. All because he loves his country.

6. True friends show up. When the hours crawl and the babies scream true friends have a spotlight on them. More so if the come bearing wine or chocolate! Delicious chocolate.

7. It gets lonely. In a room full of people, to talk to and laugh with, it gets soul emptying lonely.

8. Never discount what a good laugh is capable of changing. There are days when it can get pretty self-pitying up in here. Laugh at the kids playing in fact make them laugh. This day shall too pass.

9. Time will always tick away. Where do you want to be when it has? Meaning don’t sit on the couch waiting for the homecoming. Get out and make yourself really worth coming home to.

10. When all else fails set a goal, a purpose, to focus on and keep moving.

Five Things…

I am grateful for today.

1.  “Good Morning” texts.

2. The Doppler experience of prenatal visits.

3. Pineapple bread and tea to start the day.

4. A few more days and “a wake up” until together again.

5. Pictures of my little one from his little days.

What are your five today?

Weekly Roundout

Almost a month I haven’t set goals now and my progress on living with purpose has waned. This separation prior to our deployment has really reminded me of how much a blessing my husband truly is in the way of help. What better way to learn appreciation for a spouse then to be reminded of exactly what is missing when the are gone.

My goals this week are long and numerous but I am so excited to start some new projects and finish some old before the new little one arrives.

Here is to a happy and productive week.

Week Goals for week 7/16

Family Goals:

1. Take little one to weekly play date.

2. Continue to read aloud an hour a day.

Personal Goals:

3. Work on quilt daily.

4. Finish Life on Planet Mom.

Pregnancy Goals:

5. Continue to work out 30 minutes a day.

6. Add nightly walks with the little one.

Marriage Goals:

7. Write him a love letter.

 

Weekly Goals 8/13

Family Goals:

1. Take little one to play group.

2. Continue reading daily. Right now we are on the Elmo learn to read series and he has become so attached to his books.

3. Arrange baby well check up. He is growing too quickly.

Personal Goals:

4. Follow moneysavingmom.com challenge starting on Monday.

5. Read Life on Planet Mom

6. Work on quilt daily.

Pregnancy Goals:

7. Monthly check up this week.

8. Work out daily.

Marriage Goals:

9. Create welcome home banner.

Household Goals:

10. Continue freezer meal cooking.

11. Continue decluttering house.

What are your goals this week?

Time is Flying

In what feels like weeks we will welcome baby number two and say goodbye to Papa. It is hard to wrap my head around what is coming some days because I see so much to do yet. Time surely has to slow for me to be ready…right?

Well just the same I will be working with purpose until then!

I am packing to go visit my husband today. We are at the half way mark of one of our separations and the opportunity to see him presented itself. Very excited to venture out on a DATE!  Hopefully an adventure or two with baby sweets and my big belly in tow.

Wish me luck I will be back on Monday with many new challenges and an update(s) to my late to do list. Off to put love first ;)

Enjoy your weekend friends!