So here it is the “in between” the “busy” the “routine” that I have found comfort in this deployment. There are still some hard days that I cannot keep up with all that needs to be done but the routine of him being gone has taken over. We have found our nitch. The kids wake up and play and laugh and we pour over pictures of us as a family and they sleep (occasionally) and then it is my time to miss him. It has become a pretty normal part of my day but here dear reader I have found myself.
I have found through this deployment that I am pretty darn strong. Say what? Yep me who now carries two kids down the stairs at a time and back up no less than 17 times a day. I who sat in our parked car after receiving some unexpected bad news and still managed to catch a glimpse at my children in the rear view mirror and shake it off. The same person that dreaded sleeping alone at night and the empty silence can now drift off with prayers.
The point that comes is dark days are lighter here. Happiness is still found in Him. This could be a pretty wearisome lonely time instead days are spent squishing bath bubbles and studying birds with the littles. All because we melt into Christ now when strength is required. In this I have found strength alone. Therefore it is not loneliness I live in but solitude. Each day that passes as a family apart from one another we grow stronger in ourselves. We endure our solitude of finding ourselves further in Christ. Praising God for this time of discovery and bringing us closer to Him.
Psalms 62:5 My soul, wait thou in silence for God only; For my expectation is from him.
Was there a time in your life recently that you distinctly remember God bringing you closer to him through your solitude? A verse that you came to love at this time?